So here are the details…
I was diagnosed with a chronic, painful condition 5 or so years ago. I hate talking about it…I find it boring, I want to move on. I have a difficult, bothersome condition but I have decided this condition will not define me or my life. I found I couldn’t ride each day and some days that I did ride, I was not working at full power. I stepped back from my day-to-day and had a hard look at where I was, what I was doing and what was important in my life. The long time goal I have had of riding for Canada would have to be tweaked. I had a superstar of a horse (Lance), a superstar of a working student (Lindsey) and I knew I could still coach most days even when I was not feeling 100%. There would be a win/win opportunity here for everyone if Lindsey wanted to ride Lance. And she did.
So I changed hats. No longer rider/trainer/coach now coach/trainer. That was 4 yrs ago. Learning to expand my coaching skills without the kinesthetic feedback of being in the saddle each day was a steep learning curve. And I’m a better coach for it.
This winter, thanks to my wonderful husband, we have finally found the drug therapy that has kept me well for many days in a row, several weeks in a row. So I decided I’d like to try to ride again. Grace and I headed into the arena to see if all the buttons still worked…it was lovely, very lovely. And then I again had a major set back so Grace had some time off.
But everything has now settled down and I’ve had several days again pain-free. So Grace and I are back in the arena playing with dressage concepts and training theories. My life is very good and I am very thankful for so many things each day.
Thank you for all your words of encourgement and concern. It meant so much.